"don't you wish your girlfriend was hot like me?"

i know you really don't...actually since simone the only one who reads this anymore i know she definitely doesn't...mainly because she has a boyfriend who she wishes was "hot like me"! went to the fair last night with evie and her boyfriend "jack." it was loads of fun...except they don't particularly like carnival rides with the enthusiasm that i do, especially rides that spin a lot, or turn upside down, or move too fast. but otherwise we had fun. i won a stuffed animal for myself (b/c there was no guy to win one for me...oh the sad and pathetic-ness that is my life) and then i got to ride a really crazy, flippy, turn-you-upside-down kind of ride that was oodles of fun...except it made me feel a little sick. first time that's happened in a long time. i think my lack of yearly sojourns to six flags or at least wonderland park have affected me: i can no longer take crazy rides quite as well as i used to (barring that whole disastrous trip to six flags when i was in the 2nd grade and got my head slammed into the floor of the roller coaster cart and i couldn't move due to those usually enjoyable g-forces...but i recovered quickly after that). so what's the deal? is it merely the onslaught of years? doesn't seem like the logical conclusion. my uncle rode them like crazy when i was a little kid; he was the one who introduced the joy and necessity of putting up your hands on a ride. is it simply lack of use? i hope so. i mean, i haven't been to six flags since the last ohio mission trip...and that was when i was a junior in high school (and it was only six flags over st. louis...not texas which is by far the best ever!) and i haven't been to wonderland since senior year of high school (and i didn't do a lot there...because there's not a lot to do. and on a further note: why don't we have a little amusement park in abilene? i mean, both lubbock and amarillo have got them. they're not any bigger than us...okay so maybe tech makes lubbock bigger, but amarillo's not! i'm sure they'd have plenty of business what with all the college students looking for something, ANYTHING to do on the bare weekends. so why no park? hmm...i wonder). but maybe there are bigger things in the world to worry about...like say the natural disasters that wrecked part of our country...nah! i'm tired of all this katrina talk. i know, i know, i'm a beastly, insensitive prick for being tired of it, but i am! so there! i can't help it. when all you see on the news is katrina, katrina, KATRINA (i think i was channeling jan brady just there), you can't help but get a little bored...and more than a little desensitized. especially when you hear stories about your friend's mom doing everything she can to help victims by going to the city council to allow them to stay in her housing development free of charge with free water and electric and other amenities as well while they complain about the houses not being clean, being almost unlivable (and knowing her mom, that is impossible), also ransacking your closet to give them clothes they scoff at and say, "you expect me to wear this?", helping them get groceries and other necessities and giving them money to live on which they in turn use to buy drinks at bars in the next town, and then to have them blatantly tell you they're going to keep drugs in their houses, despite the developments policy of no drugs. this is why people end up having little sympathy for disaster victims, or often, victims of any sort: there are people out there who simply use their misfortune for their own gain and milk it for everything it's worth, regardless of the cost to others. and for people like this, congress might cut our government loans and financial aid. that's bullshit. it just is. i hope my friend's mother puts on a surprise drug dog check and the lot of those moochers get kicked out for not following rules. it's just wrong to use people like that, especially when they're doing everything in their power to help you, often at expense to themselves. but enough of this ranting. i'm tired and i need to try and make an outline for my Poe paper. yippee. signing off and hoping that "what goes around comes around" for some of the victims of hurricane katrina

"everything's changing and i don't feel the same"

so it's been a few days since i've blogged, and i feel some updates are in order: seeing as we're doing a benefit performance of Grand Night on sunday afternoon, we can't have strike until after the show...which means i may not get to go to swing cats. bummer! so i'll probably have to call or e-mail cole or katy and let them know so they'll still let me and peter join. maybe we can pay early or something. and then at 9pm we have an alpha psi meeting...yippee-kai-a (since you're only reading this, that last comment was meant with sarcasm...lots of it). it's not that i don't want to be a part of alpha psi, it's just that i don't want to be stranded at the theatre all day when i could be out dancing and having fun. i can't think of any other updates at the moment...at least not any that are interesting enough to put in my blog...oh wait! there is one: i finally got good internet service at my house. yay for me! (not sarcastic this time around) so now i can start blogging more...hopefully. and clearwire (my ISP) gave me space for a website. how cool is that? now what i put on the website will be up to me...and will most likely be boring and trivial and something only i will enjoy. but other than that, fun! oh and the other night evie, simone, and i all went out and had us a girls' night out which was soooooo amazingly fun (except the guy making eyes at me from the end of the bar left sometime when evie and i were two-stepping...stinker!) and really great because i feel like i haven't seen simone in ages. so it was great fun and i can't wait to do it again...and again...and as many times as we can before we all die of alcohol poisoning or a messy accident with a pool cue. so this is me signing off, "bedshaped and legs of stone."